I am not perfect. And it’s okay.
It’s okay that I didn’t read the pile of books I lugged on personal retreat in my all-too-heavy bag. Instead, I sat still in nature, starring into the ether pondering my life purpose.
It’s okay that I didn’t write the blogs I intended to write. Instead, I found my way deep into my heart, got in touch with my deepest desire and wrote a love letter.
It’s okay that I drank wine —a lot of wine – two nights in a row in my PJs on the porch…and thoroughly enjoyed it!
It’s okay that I didn’t’ hike as many miles over three days as I had planned cause the miles I hiked were rigorous and challenged me. I got wet, muddy, and re-invigorated. And it was real.
It’s okay that I ate healthy most of the weekend and then I ate chocolate. I wasn’t perfect. I ate chocolate. It tasted awesome and made me want more. And it’s okay because I know my way back.
It’s okay that it took me a full 24 hours to make the outside world stop. To shut off the outside voices and find my own. Because, eventually, I did.
It’s okay that I slept more than expected, listened to the same music over and over, got fewer things crossed off the to-do list and will go back to work no farther ahead. It’s okay because I can hear my heart. I can feel my legs and they are grounded. It’s okay because I know what to do next that will make my heart sing.
It’s okay that I might fall, fail or get hurt because I took a leap. It’s okay because I went for it. It’s all part of the journey of being really alive and I am really alive! I’m a perfectly imperfect, going-for-it kinda gal. And I love that about me.
So while the expectations of what I would accomplish on this solo retreat were great going in, and I didn’t accomplish most of what was on the list. It’s okay. Instead, I honored my spirit, embraced imperfection, and smiled inside.
I think this is awesome. I think I am awesome. I wish this for everyone. Honor your true self, celebrate your imperfections and find happiness in the process.
It’s okay. Wherever you are. Whomever you are. It’s okay. Find your heart and let it sing. It will all be okay!
Another blog written for me from personal retreat, July 29, 2013